Its Going to be Hard

Okay.. Since my separation I finally went to see if I can find someone I can be happy with. Well, I have done that, his name is Brad and he makes me so happy. So, far we've been talking since about a month almost. And I have yet to not smile when we talk, think about him when I see him I just get butterflies. I haven't felt like this in such a long time. I never thought, I'd meet a guy who is willing to do so much for me. For a guy to drive out in the middle of a snow storm to not only see me but, meet my daughter and my good friend is defiantly a keeper lol..

I guess the main thing that I am afraid is that, in less then 2 months he leaves for deployment. For security I can't say where he's going just going to be gone for 8 months. I am soo scared, its not him being gone.. Its the fact that there is a chance he may not come back that scares me. I am worried that, while he is over there we may end up no longer together. Can I do it? Is the question. I know I can handle the long lonely days, weeks, months but, its the waiting. I am not a patient woman lol.. My roommate asked me a very important question the other day, "Is he worth waiting for?" I told her, "heck yes, he is".

I have messed up in relationships but, this one I am not messing up for any reason. I am in the this for as long as he wants to keep me around lol.. I just hope that, this isn't too good to be true. That I am not getting ahead of myself.

Can I do it?